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Thursday, October 2, 2014

Words are life's magical GPS

I couldn't tell you where I first read this poem, but it moved me.This life, filled with its daily lessons, some good, some great, and some that completely change you, poems like this are just brilliant to me. The fact that someone writes words that move others so much, I think, is a precious gift, and wanted to share one of the millions of works I've read, so hopefully you are moved as well. 

BABYSKIN: NOTES FOR A GRANDCHILD    Barbara Adams 

At first, you will get all that you want— milk, sleep, softness, warmth, and love for nothing. 
Then, gradually, you will get to know  pain, fear, disgust, loneliness through your soft babyskin. 
For a long time, if you are a lucky one,  you will enjoy timeless fun—      
running, throwing, singing, skipping, and giggling in the dark 
games of hide and seek. For a long time, if you are a lucky one,
the worst you will suffer is broken  skin or bone, the fever of a cold and happy goosebumps. Then, precious heir, suddenly one day           
Time begins and you will want what you can’t always get—  lobster, French wine, down bed, cradling arms,  love for nothing. 
You will try to keep what can’t be saved—  joy, peace, content, and soft  babyskin. 
You will come down
the chronic fever, incurable, the weariness and chill of a broken promise, a frozen dream,            
and the thrill of a breakable heart.
Finally, my innocent descendant, you will learn to sing (if you’re an heir of mine) of pain, disgust, hate, and loneliness.
But you will not be afraid if you know all this and love someone—or two—for nothing. 
You will live, then, as well as can be expected  till your babyskin is tough as mine.

Friday, May 30, 2014

Zoey, You Are My Sunshine......

L@:]My beautiful granddaughter, Zoey, was born in April. I am so thankful for this amazing, bundle of sunshine,  that has stolen my heart from the moment she started moving in her mommys
belly. Then, I got to be there when Zoey took her first breath, and made her grand entrance, the day she was born. Holding her, rocking her, and just watching her sleep, made my heart want to burst. Its hard to believe that almost 26 years ago, I was blessed with my son, who is her daddy. That he was actually, smaller than her, and now he has his own baby girl. And he is no little guy any more. He is a 6' tall, almost 200 lb., man, that started as a little bundle, and stole my heart. Now, as I see him with her, I see the love shining through, and he understands when I talk about how precious he was, and is to me. These moments are what makes life so amazing. 

Saturday, October 19, 2013

I will always hold your place!

My son, who is a US Marine, was deployed, in August. There are not words to describe what a mother, a family, goes through when their son, daughter, husband, father, loved one, is deployed.
To me and my family, it is like a piece of of hearts have been ripped from our chest, I know that he is among awesome, brilliant, loyal and trained people, who live to watch each others' backs, have a bond forged in every thing they do, and have done together. Their loyalty to our country, belief in the fact that, their job has an intimate goal of keeping us safe here at home, as we go on in our day to day lives. But as the mother of a Marine, I pray everyday for his safety, strength and safe return home to our family. I am so blessed to say that I have a son who is, not only my heart, but he is a wonderful husband to my daughter in law, a best friend to his sister, a loving son to his father and loving member of our whole family. He is one of the most loyal, honest, and caring people I know, as are all my kids. I could not have asked for better kids. I wrote a post earlier and I have edited and revised, but this is the new updated version, inspired by my son, that I sent to him to read and have when he needs to be reminded of how much he is loved. It is how I feel for my kids, but this one was written when I was missing him so much that I felt heart sick. This says in words, the best way I can, how they hold my heart in the palm of their hands.

I will always hold your place-
As long as I breathe-
The place in my heart and soul ,that is yours,
the moment I saw your sweet face and knew, without a shadow of a doubt ,that,every step I took, every lesson I learned, every happy day, every tear, every victory and loss,
Every life changing horror that I survived, brought you to me.
The dream that I didn't know I dreamed,
 the wish and blessing that god saw fit to grant me, the gift of you, that fills my heart to overflowing , strengthening my faith in miracles, 
when I had been tested, beaten and almost broken by this life.
But because I have always had that place,
In my fathers' heart, that 
Kept me strong, helped me survive , and taught me true, real,unconditional love! That many, many people speak of, but never truly know.
That place is forever mine, a gift that is priceless,timeless and irreplaceable, that lives on daily, and was gifted to you, through me. 
That true, loyal, unconditional
Love,that is given freely with every kind word and action.
The look that says more than words,
 the swelling of our hearts when we walk away  from each other, because you will be missed so much that We feel like something is being ripped from our chest! 
The moments we have daily that remind us of each other, that make us heart -sick, to see each other, but ,knowing that you will be okay because, you are being missed and loved just as much.
Faith in that love, that place, that face, keeps the smile on your face and the tears from your eyes. 
Knowing that every day, on this earth, you are loved, you are being prayed for, you are blessed, you are being cheered on in all things you do, big and small,you are the reason and rhyme , that keeps hope alive when this world tries to wear you down and beat you.
This gift we have, that is ours alone, to carry within us , that makes us stronger, better, happier and unstoppable.
Our weapon against anything that we may face, our invisible armour that shields us ,and keeps us strong.
To do our best, be kind when we can, make a difference and give hope in a world that can be cold, lonely, cruel, hopeless.
Waiting to kick you when your down.
You carry a gift that can't be seen by all, only by some, but that gift makes you shine when others are dull, in all that you do, you will shine and leave your mark, and be unstoppable! 
Because we believe, that is all we need!
The safe place, 
where you are loved for who you are,
The place where you are not alone for one moment, because you share your life with the ones you love.
The place you go to when you feel that the world is full of strangers. 
You can close your eyes, and see a face that is home and love, and you are renewed in the knowledge that,  
when the ones you love close their eyes- they see your face- you are their home and love- and that one little moment-
makes  you stronger, happier, and unafraid to face the world!
Knowing that, in this world of broken promises, and unkind words, there is a place,
 there is a face, that holds your promises dear and true, and always has kind words for you, just because you are you...
The face that lights up just to see your face or speak your name.
The place that,no one else ,could ever take ,
because it is uniquely yours, 
in your heart and theirs.
To have that place, 
and have that face, is a gift and blessing,and when you have it, you can never imagine your life without it!
And when you see others that have never had this gift, it makes you sad for them, because everyone deserves to know true, real,unconditional love at least once in their life.
Knowing that you make the sunshine sweeter, the rainy days happier, the best days  better, the future brighter.
 It's  the smile that touches your face,every time you close your eyes, and you know that you are blessed with love that is yours,unending and unbreakable.
You carry it in your heart and soul, it's always there,
through the hard times and bad days. 
In this world that tries to hold you back, slow you down,  and break you,
you are blessed with that place and that face,  that  they are there, to give you strength, to take that step, dream that dream and do your best. 
Its there, when life feels too hard and others are trying to lead you from your path.
Hold it close, treasure it,
and know that, its Yours and No One can take it,or change it!
You take it with you wherever you go, 
and when you need it, 
when you are feeling sad, unsure, alone,or just need a little hope or love,  
close your eyes for a moment, and there, in a world of strangers, you have that place, that face, that holds you near and dear, loves you unconditionally, wants you happy, feels your pain,wants to make it all better somehow, and wants to make that moment, when you think of that place, that face,
 the moment that you know,
without the shadow of a doubt,that your irreplaceable,
and loved more than life. 
And know, you are that place, that face, that moment ,
to the ones that you love, that keeps us strong, loved, unafraid and able to face all that this world has to offer.
No matter the distance or passage of time,  you are never alone,
 just close your eyes for a moment,
 I'm there,as long as I breathe and even after that, I'm  that place, that face, your love and your home, as you are mine and ours, always.....Mom
(Queenersmom)





Saturday, June 29, 2013

It's the little things..,,,

There is a picture of a father and son, dressed as super heroes, walking through a store, that I repinned on Pinterest. Then I wrote a few words about how awesome I think this is. I was raised by my father, and have a different take on life and the way I interact with my kids. My father was always completely honest and direct with my brothers and I. He didn't sugarcoat things, but considering what we had seen from our mom, before they divorced, her being schizophrenic, and chemically enhanced most of the time,was the best thing, we wouldnt have been as close if he wasnt the way he was. He was one of the few REAL people that i have known, just like the song, I did it my way! that was my Dad. He never let anyone change or interfere, with the way he loved us, he taught me about the real world,that life is never fair and when you love your kids, you listen to them, you are loyal and you are their shelter from the storm,but you teach them how to survive and thrive. My Dad was no saint by any means, but when i look back on my life, and think of him, my heart still hurts knowing that this man has left this earth. He was one of the best friends i ever had, he loved me unconditionally, and right this moment, as i think of him, tears are in my eyes because i miss him so deeply. He was always my biggest fan and his easy going way,kind heart, along with his love, i have given to my kids. I have to say,now that my kids are grown, they are two of the best,loyal, loving and kind hearted people I know,and as I light up when my Dad walked in a room, they, and I do the same. We talk all the time, we listen to each other.To me, they are sun and moon,and they love me right back.Theynare the first to let anyone in their lives know that, we are close, and that will never change because, just like my dad, I have always been their home & heart, their biggest fan , their truth, and their strength. I used to tell my Dad that I prayed my kids loved me as much as I loved him, and they are proof that prayers are answered. As the Maya Angelou poem says; People will forget what you said, they will forget what you did , but they will never forget how they made you feel. That is a real truth, remember that when dealing with the people you care about. Make things better than they were when you leave.Life  throws you around, kicks you when your down, and gives you tests when you have no eraser, and laughs... That's when you need love the most, that's when you need the baseball bat wielding ,smiling and determined love that, hands you a bat, shows you how to hold it, and a brand new eraser, as they tell you, as long as I breathe, I'll have your back ,your never alone, and right, wrong or in between, you've got my love & you've got me,always!! Queenersmom 
Lqueener

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Close your eyes and I'm there...

The safe place, where home is where you are loved for who you are,
The place where you are not alone for one moment, because you share your life with the ones you love.
The place you go to when you feel that the world is full of strangers, and you can close your eyes, and see a face that is home and love, and you are renewed in the knowledge that,  when the ones you love close their eyes- they see your face- you are their home and love- and that little moment-
makes  you stronger, happier, and unafraid to face the world.
Knowing that, in this world of broken promises and unkind words, there is a place,
 there is a face, that holds your promises dear and true, and always has kind words for you, just because you are you. 
The face the lights ,just to see your face or speak your name.
The place that,not one other could ever take ,
because it is uniquely yours, 
in your heart and theirs.
To have that place, 
and have that face is a gift.
Knowing that you make the sunshine sweeter, the rainy days happier, the best days  better, the future brighter.
 It's  the smile that touches your face every time you close your eyes, and you know that you are blessed with love that is yours,unending and unbreakable.
You carry it in your heart and soul, it's always there,
through the hard times and bad days. 
In this world that tries to hold you back, slow you down,  and break you,
you are blessed with that place and that face,  that  are there, to give you strength, to take that step, dream that dream and do your best. 
Its there when life feels too hard and others are trying to lead you from your path.
Hold it close, treasure it,
and know that, its yours and no one can take it,or change it.
You take it with you wherever you go, 
and when you need it, 
when you are feeling sad, unsure, alone,or just need a little hope or love,  
close your eyes for a moment, and there, in a world of strangers, you have that place, that face, that holds you near and dear, loves you unconditionally, wants you happy, feels your pain, and wants to make that moment, when you think of that place, that face,
 the moment that you know,
without the shadow of a doubt,that your irreplaceable,
and loved more than life. 
And know, you are that place, that face, that moment ,
to the ones that you love, that keeps them strong, loved, unafraid and able to face all that this world has to offer.
No matter the distance or passage of time,  you are never alone,
 just close your eyes for a moment,
 I'm there, that place, that face, your love and your home, always.....

Thursday, October 11, 2012

The BEST online shopping sites!

L@:] There are many, many, online shopping sites. That is an understatement, but, 
I have found quite a few that go above and beyond the others. Not only with their 
quality products, but with excellent service ,and outstanding deals. With much 
time, trail and error, I am giving you some that will amaze you. 
My favorite, by far, is
 (1)www.1saleaday.com. The deals change every day, 
there is a flash deals page, that offers free shipping on all the deals 
on that page.
(2)www.bensoutlet.com , they have free shipping every day and 
great deals. 
(3) www.bradsdeals.com , there are lots of deals, and 
a wide selection for everyone. 
(4)www.zulily.com , there are tons of great 
deals for baby clothes, kids clothes, adults and
moms and dads. 
(5)ideeli.com , there are great name brand
deals for everyone,and for the home.
(6) www.zappos.com , I have to say that if you love name brand,
you will love zappos, there is alot more than just shoes ,
and the free return policy is outstanding, 
you never have to worry about getting the wrong size, 
or fit, or if your not happy, free return, there you go!
Get two sizes in the same shoe, keep the ones that fit,
and return the ones that don't, on their dime. 
Those are just a few, I have lots more, but for now,
check these out, and I will add more sites.
I also know lots of coupon sites that are 
worth checking out, great coupons, sales and 
coupon codes that actually work. 
www.retailmenot.com, is one of them. 
I always go there before I buy anything
online to see if there are sales, coupons to
print or coupon codes, for free shipping, discounts,
and lots more. 
Happy shopping!!!!

Thursday, May 17, 2012

The Best Job I Ever Had Is Being A Mom!

L@:]There are alot of things in this life that I have
 done. A lot of things that I have seen. The most rewarding,
heart swelling, happiest moments that are my life,
have been from my two children. Now I know what
my father meant  when would tell me that he loved
me more than life. Because,
that is how I feel about my son and daughter.
It's in the way  that you have a genuine love and
caring for each other, their happiness, interest in
their daily life, the small things and the monumental.
Wanting to know when things happen, sharing
experiences and advice.
Being there when they need you, and sometimes when
they think they don't. The times we are all together,
when we laugh until we cry, and even the smallest
moments mean so much,because,
we are all together and content with each other.
Knowing that when one has to leave, that it creates
a void in our family that can't be fixed until they
return.
We have lived with that void, when my son joined
the Marines. While he was gone to boot camp for
three months, it felt like a piece of my
heart was missing. And it was the same for his wife,
sister and his dad but, it brought us closer as a
family and when he came home for the short time
he was here,we spent every day together
and cherished each other. It has helped all of us
to become closer and be thankful for every single day
that we have together. Personally, I have known a lot
of heart breaking, life changing moments in my life
from a young age.
But, I have to say, as a mother, watching my only
son walk away, twice so far, into the unknown,
but chosen path of his life, I have never felt so
heartsick at his leaving. Even though I have the
utmost faith in him and his decisions,because he
is one of the best, brightest and most
capable people I know,
his absence leaves a void for me and our family.
Saying that, I have never been more proud and
honored to be his mother, and not just because he
is now a marine, but because I know the person he is.
I have always been his biggest fan,
even when no one else knew, and I always will be,
no matter what life brings, because I love both my
children unconditionally.
I am so happy every day that they have grown to
be the  outstanding, beautiful people I knew that
they would be.
There are not words that could describe how
happy they make me. That is the best mothers
day gift I could ever get because I get it every day
of my life.

A mothers love for her child is like nothing else in the world.
It knows no laws, no pity, it dares all things and crushes
down remorselessly all that stands in its path.
Agatha Christie